early mornings

Last night was a bit of a rough one, my 3 almost 4 month old son decided to wake up every two hours after 11pm last night. After multiple 2 ounce grazing feedings I was done, spent. Frustrated with myself and with him, I decided to start my day at 5am.

If you know me at all, you know that is a VERY early start to the day. Instead of driving myself insane with mom blogs to look at on how to sleep train my 4 month old. Or trying to figure out what I did wrong these last few months to deserve this kind of abuse lol, I opened my Bible app and dove into the Psalms. Maybe David has some advice on raising an infant. lol

I cam across this particular Psalm today, it was Psalm 3:5 " I lie down and sleep; I wake again because the Lord sustains me." When I read this, the word the stood out to me as sustain. It was a word that I know and commonly say but I really wanted to dig deep and find out the true definition of this word.

The word sustain has multiple meanings:

1. to support hold, or bear up from below; bear the weight of

2. to bear (to carry)

3. to undergo, experience or suffer, endure without giving way

I am so glad that I took the time to look up this definition. Because it put this in perspective. That I am able to rest and relax because the Lord has GOT ME! He has chosen to bear my burdens and weight that I carry. He wants to hold me up when I am weak and can't do it on my own anymore. Most importantly he endures with me. NO matter what is happening he is choosing to walk along side of me and carry what might be weighing me or my heart down.

So lets live life, our resting our waking anything we are doing full of joy and hope! Because its not the amount of sleep you get or don't get or your current circumstances, its about remembering that God will sustain us, so lets relax and rest during this season!